NPE #4 - 01/18/10 - "Butterfly Appears"

“Butterfly Appears”

The dream started in a Court room. N is a lawyer, and I am sitting at his side, like an assistant. M and A are sitting in the row behind us and I am chatting with them. I can’t recall what the case and trial was about. I get up to go to the bathroom. The bathroom is located in what seems to be an airport. There are urinals right outside of the terminals. I notice K is jogging by and I say Hi to him, but he just ignored me. I yell his name again as he runs away, but he doesn’t seem to hear me. I wonder if I am invisible.

Next, I run into N and he seems disturbed with something I do when I talk on the phone with a few other friends. I tell him I am just trying to please them, but can’t recall exactly what it was about. I remind him that he has a job to do in the courtroom and he agrees. After talking with N and seeing K, it clicks in my head that I must be dreaming.

I become lucid and decide to try and break out of the airport. I attempt to smash one of the huge glass windows but can’t seem to break through the glass. As soon as I smash the window it simultaneously restructures itself. It looks very cool, albeit frustrating. I see an airport worker opening a door about 60 yards away and I quickly fly over and out the door.

As I get outside, I’m astounded by the beauty and warmth of the sun – It feels so vividly real! I attempt to fly high and quickly into the sky, but I am still being weighed down like in other lucid dreams. I notice an old pickup truck and I attempt to launch myself off of the hood, like a spring board, but I once again drift to the ground.

I decide to walk and I notice a nice area that has all these trees and flowers – It’s a real nice nature seen. I decide I will wait by the trees until my “spirit guide” appears. I say aloud, “I want to see my spirit guide,” curious to see what develops. All of a sudden, an array of white butterflies come out of the trees. I notice a big white spotted one land on the tree, and a smaller once lands on my finger. I am astounded by what my intent has produced. Within a few moments I awaken surging with energy and excitement.

Some thoughts: In many of my earlier NPEs, and even at times to this day, my belief systems can limit my experience. A perfect example of this is how I was weighed down to the ground when I tried to fly into the air. There is no gravity in consciousness space. With clear intent, one can fly effortlessly around. In this dream, I let my physical reality conditioning, that of gravity, shape my experience. How often do other types of belief systems shape our experience in waking reality as well?

This was the first dream I was able to "summon" a "spirit guide." This was very interesting to me because butterflies are the last thing I was consciously expecting. I had been having dreams about bears for years before hand, and probably would have expected something like a bear or in the least a bearded man in a robe. If there is indeed some type of objective element to CS, I wonder if what I experienced was literal or symbolic in nature. Symbolically, the butterfly is attributed to the idea of metamorphosis, of transformation. From a literal perspective, it is interesting to think the beings we share physical reality with become our allies in the non-physical as well. Maybe the answer is somewhere in between.

When I shared this dream on Robert Moss' dream forum, Robert was keen to point out that often dream "airports" and other transportation hubs are symbolic of actual non-physical places where we "come and go" from different realities. Similarly, dream beaches often symbolize the membrane between one reality and the next. Overall, this dream was very inspiring for me. I vividly remember waking up and running into my brother's room to share my experience.